Chances vs. Changes

Wow, I just gotta say this show on TV Brat Camp is fucked up. I look at it,although I'm older and wonder if 40 days in the desert would help me refocus, shit makes me cry. I guess I'm hoping my move will at least point me in the right direction. My dad stopped in at the store today and I don't know if it all the tattoos he's never seen or the way I looked, but he kinda seemed concerned at a distance.Lovely that he stopped by to show me his new vette.I don't give a shit about his fucking car, but maybe he just stopped by to see me and doesn't know how to communicate that.Moved another carload of shit after work, sweat three days worth of hydration out of myself. That sucked,almost fully packed though. I don't know if I want to live in the attic anymore, it was seriously 20 degrees higher than downstairs. I am gonna try and switch it up with Stefan, since they want to have drums up there for practice anyhow. Pray for me, the next fuckin' month or so will be untolerable up there,seriously. Nothing could be worse than here, I hope.

I'm tired of hiding from people and not socializing,I've never been like that,ever. I hope this move changes shit.It would be nice to have friends again.More hopes. I think Paul will be a positive change for me, he's doing good and has a new lady friend, so he's pretty happy. Hope the other roomie is chill,guess i can't ask much more than to be living with other folks who's passion is music.

On another positive,I'm gonna get together with some coworkers to look into a possible collaborative music project. All super talented and a free studio, gonna roll through and see if I can add anything to it.Maybe some rhymes form my pathetic book ,even better, some weird turntable shit.Works tough. Bob and Tia are gone,kinda sad, Keith's probably on his way out. Definitely some new people in the coming weeks that could be real positive.

Personal life,giant confusing mess. No surprise, every year or so I visit this space. Perseverance. Getting used to disasters.

I guess that's it. I'm not sure when another update will be happening,depends on how fast i get reconnected with this devil, only TV could be worse, which I'm not paying for at least until the frigid cold months of winter, which I honestly miss right now.I love having four seasons. I will also miss the mornings walking with my ex to move our cars at 6AM in the morning together, being stuck and dumb shit like that. Looking back,they are fond memories of a funny struggle most of us Portlanders deal with.Not this winter though, I have parking,thank god, and in-house laundry! Fuck yeah!Back to the cable, I scored a Super Nintendo and a Playstation 1 last week, that should satisfy my glowing box craving, at least I can listen to more music.Bye!